Confessed Confusion

Lord, I'm bearing my heart, I'm Holding back tears

confessing confusion that's been built up for years

I don't even know what's real and what's not

I'm lost in a fog and can't see what I've got

I think it, I say it, but my heart does not feel

Where is your power, and where is my zeal

Shed off my layers, pull them back like a peal

And prick at my heart till I know that your real

I'm lost in my ignorance and I drown in my pride

I know what I hopes there, but what's truly inside

Bring me to You Lord and hold me forever

Never let go and hide me like treasure

I am not happy here in the walk that I have

Show me Your ways and anoint me with salve

Take me from prideful, arrogant and unsure

mold me from childish and into mature

Take me right now Lord, but I want you to know

I am still worried and SO scared to go

I hope that one day when I'm at Your throne

Through all of my mess ups you'll still say, "Well done"

Do I know that Your there, do I really believe

This is my question, and that's why I grieve

I know that I'm lukewarm and long not to be

Help me to know Lord, that I've been set free